This Bite

This Bite

Recovery is about every bite

But right now, in this moment

All that matter is this bite

This bite is for all the lies you told me

All the lies I was too scared not to believe

All the lies burned in my mind

This bite is for all the names you called me

For the self-hate you infused into me

The reflection you have made me hate

This bite is for the days you stole from me

The days I spent exercising, counting, crying

Desperate for a way out

This bite is for the joy you robbed me of

The smiles that were replaced with tears

The laughter replaced with sobbing

This bite is for the body you destroyed with your violent anger

The body I was blessed with that you crippled

The body I will now fight to protect

 

This bite is for my future

The one I am reclaiming

The one you try and tell me will never be

This bite is for all the people who said I couldn't

All the ones who deemed recovery impossible

All the ones who didn't know my God's power

This bite is for the laughter

The laughter I will find again

The smiles that laughter will bring

This bite is for memories

The ones I will build without you

And the ones I refuse to miss out on by obeying you

This bite is for my family

The loved ones I have here who love me

And the ones who have passed and are cheering me on

This bite is for my papa

The man I miss so much

The man who believe I could and would recover

This bite is for the strangers

The people I have yet to meet that I am supposed to help

The people who are counting on me

This bite is for and with my God

For the truth He will restore me with

For the body and beauty He has blessed me with

This bite is for hope,

For love, for promises, for dreams

For everything you stole from me that I will reclaim

This bite

This bite is for me