Just wanted to let you know I am going to be doing two more posts today. One is a story God inspired me to wrote that I would like to share and the other is about a new way my faith is helping me recover :)
Now for some updates for this summer. As you can see, I didn't meet a lot of my Spring Semester goals, but honestly I didn't really try because I made them too high and above what I knew I could handle. I expected a level of recovery in a semester that I have never achieved in my life. So this summer I am going to work with my nutritionist to make more concrete goals for me to meet on a weekly basis, that way I won't lose sight of them.
Next..my fear food list you will notice later tonight will be updated...and not in a good way. I have come to realize I am much more afraid of food than I let on, because once my N here at school went on maternity leave I stopped even trying to diversify my food...and thus I am afraid of anything I am not eating. Plus I realized as soon as I knocked something off the list I also stopped eating it and thus I never really conquered the fear and achieved freedom.
New for this summer too is an approach my family and I are taking at recovery using a modified Maudsley approach. The Maudsley approach basically looks to the family for accountability instead of leaving them out of the recovery process. I have always wanted to ask my family to hold me accountable but I have been scared because that basically means there is no way my ED can thrive in my house even when I want it to. Usually going home means freedom to act in my ED and now, with this system, it's going to instead be a place that pushes me to real freedom. My family is on board and I will be sharing my meal plan, fear foods, and food rituals list with my mom and stepdad which is something I have never done. I have always left them out of my food decisions and recovery...but I figure we already see how that method worked...so why not try something different.
|Hopefully it doesn't end up looking like this lol.|
Love you all. Keep me posted on how you are doing as well.