First off something I used to eat no problem: Clif Bars. I used to love these bars then I got scared of a certain nutrient in them....and never ate one again. But here I am a year and a half later and not only did I have a Clif Bar, but I had one with icing on it. I love that the bar doesn't say WARNING: There is icing on this bar. Nope, just says peppermint stick. Imagine my suprise when I opened it and there was a nice drizzle of icing. But let me tell you....IT WAS AMAZING!!!! Sure I'm still scared of them, but I can go face one again in the future.
The next one is extra,extra special to me because it is a recipe of my family's that was featured in our dining hall. It's an adaptation of my grandma's Hummingbird Cake Recipe, but we adapted it to my dietary needs (aka no animal fats). So here they are Ruthie's Rockin' Hummin' Bird Muffins. In memory of my G-ma Ruth who died this August. It was scary for me to have these because no nutrition information, but I enjoyed them so much I snuck some out and have them in my room. After eating about 6 of them now...the fear is being replaced by freedom :)
Now a lesson one must learn from Freedom Foods...sometimes they are Freedom Fails. Not because you don't try them, but because they don't taste good. Case and point: Curry Rice Pilaf at my school. Sounds good, is definitely scary ( I have a huge fear of rice) and it was definitely not tasty at all. Which definitely did not help with ED thoughts, but hey I survived. Oh and look in the background....that is Chocolate Milk....a lovely mandatory addition by my nutritionist to my meal plan.
And last, but not least.....FREEDOM FRIDAY FREEDOM FOODS!!!!!! These are all the freedom foods I have had thus far today. My head is screaming to exercise, but I refuse to...it takes away the whole freedom concept. But unpictured, because I haven't done it yet....Kettle Corn with candy and pudding. Yeah...I'm freaking out. But look I still managed a smile on my way to lunch...where I was greeted with the first freedom food of the day :)
These are lovely Glazed Acorn Squash. This is what happens when you tell your nutritionist you so enjoyed the steamed butternut squash that was a suprise in the dining hall last week (as in not on the menu). She then finds out they are having acorn squash and GLAZING IT! Then she lets you know you will be having that this week.....great...Well, it actually was really good. I still have the ED part of me that wonders why the heck people have to go and mess up perfectly healthy items, but alas I ate it. And the glaze was pretty good. And it's another food I've never had. Until this week I had never had acorn or butternut squash. AND I HAVE NEVER GLAZED SQUASH EVER! But look, now I have the freedom to choose to glaze it if I want to (the want to part is where we need some work haha. Oh and there's parts of the rest of my lunch too...definitely not even 1/8 of my lunch, but had to make room for the photo op. Maybe one day I will get the courage to photgraph all I eat in a day...right now I am sadly too ashamed of my intake (because ED tells me it's too much). Anyway, back to freedom. Look what's there CHOCOLATE 1% MILK....ohh nutritionist how you "love" me.
And last, but certainly not least and going along with the chocolate milk idea: Hot cocoa. I have to have this to make up the difference in calories between store bought and the 5 oz bagels in my dining hall, but today I was feeling the store bought ones I have leftover from break, so I did the right thing and made up the calories. Thus...hot cocoa was in store. So now I'm realizing I had sugary glaze and hot cocoa...and I am planning on a sugary treat later (it's actually a mandatory sweet treat thing I have every day as you all will learn on Monday). Yep....ED is screaming, but I vow to you all I will not work out and I will end this day in victory.