Sure I struggle with guilt when I have a previously forbidden food or for not exercising or for eating something not perfectly measured or for eating when I'm full. But today it wasn't any of those things. It was just for eating. Just for giving my body the nutrition it deserved. And I was ravenous today...actually this whole weekend I have been. So really...it doesn't make sense. But alas...it was there for a reason and I have decided to take the negative feeling and do something positive with it. So I am gonna write the poem-esk thingy. Here goes...
When Everything in You....
When everything in you tells you not to eat...
Eat because your body needs it
Eat because its what your team is making you do
Eat because its what you would tell another recovery warrior to do
Eat because you need the fuel to study and get good grades
Eat because you have the ability to and in other countries they don't
Eat because otherwise you will have to confess you didn't
Eat because you don't deserve to punish yourself
Eat because your body doesn't deserve to be punished
Eat because God provided for you too
Eat because its the next right thing to do
When everything in you tells you to overexcercise...
Take the day off because you deserve a break
Take the day off because you could cause injury to keep you from normal exercise
Take the day off because your team would tell you to
Take the day off because its what you would tell your readers to do
Take the day off because there's more fun things to do
Take the day off so you can discover new things to do with your time
Take the day off because it will be one less outfit you have to wash
Take the day off because it will make tomorrow easier
Take the day off because by breathing you deserve the right to eat
Take the day off because you can
Take the day off because its the next right thing to do
When everything in you tells you you can't
Do it because you know you can
Do it because you are stronger than the voices of ED
Do it because God is stronger than all
Do it because all things are possible through Christ
Do it to prove to yourself you can
Do it because its the only way to discover your strength
Do it because its the next right thing to do
When everything in you tells you to leave some behind
Eat it anyway because its part of your meal plan
Eat it anyway because that's how you will find victory
Eat it anyway because there is nothing stopping you from it
Eat it anyway because the little girl inside deserves it
Eat it anyway because the guilt of not eating it will propel you into destruction
Eat it anyway because its nutrients your body needs
Eat it anyway because you are strong enough to handle it
Eat it anyway because ED doesn't deserve to rule your choices
Eat it anyway because its the next right thing to do
So when everything in you is steering you to destruction,
Choose to do the opposite
Choose to live
Choose to be free
Choose to learn your true strength
Choose to not let anything hold you back in life
Choose to prove to yourself just how amazing you are
Choose the life God has destined for you
Choose to do the next right thing
Initially the next right thing will feel wrong
It will bring fear and anxiety
Worry and regret
Pain and tears
But hold out, wait, keep choosing the next right thing
Keep putting one foot in front of the other and the next right thing will bring
Joy and Peace
Comfort and Warmth
Pride and Understanding
It will bring the future you deserve
The life God has for you
The love you deserve
Because choosing the next wrong thing got you to where you are
And when where you are isn't where you want to be
All that's left to do is choose the next right thing
Thanks guys....I know I may not be the best writer and I know this is a strange post, but I needed to do it if for no other reason than it was the next right thing.
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